Saturday, March 15, 2008

sigh

well, I guess this is what happens when there's just too much on my mind. I haven't worked out, weighed myself or dealt with anything for the last week other than what I've had to. I miss Meghan, Eddie, g'ma, the boys and Molly. I miss being home. It's hard to be here, where everywhere I look it makes me think if my dad.

Friday, February 29, 2008

Feb 29, 2008

55 min Treadclimber

I am serious about working towards my weight loss goals, It's frustrating to not see results quicker. sigh.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Feb 26, 2008

156.8

40 min treadclimber
45 min swimming

I'm not feeling motivated for some reason, it was a chore to exercise today. Maybe I'm pms'ing...

Monday, February 25, 2008

Feb 25, 2008

155.6#

45 min treadclimber

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Feb 24, 2007

60 min treadclimber

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Feb 23, 2008

157.2#

60 min treadclimber

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Feb 22 2008

156.8#

45 min treadclimber

Went to Fredricksburg to take Meg to the dentist. Ate lunch at Olive garden (soup) and dinner at chuck e cheese. I hate to even think about how many calories that pizza is.

Feb 20,2008

158#

30 Min elliptical
1 1/2 hour swimming

Dr appts.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Feb 19, 2008

156#

55 min Hardcore Kickboxing DVD
60 min treadclimber 3.5/12
30 min swimming

ahhhh. so it makes a BIG difference to have 4# of weight on your hands while doing kickboxing- takes it to a whole new level- I am wiped out! now I just wanna sit in a sauna then get a backrub- then I will be golden :D (hey~ a girl can dream!)

....later tonight... I got the sauna we shall about the backrub :)

Monday, February 18, 2008

Feb 18, 2008

157.8#

45 min treadclimber

Spent some wonderful hours snuggling with Eddie this morning~ it's exactly what I needed after the week in MA. He's dreamy.... Messed around and *almost* didn't work out :) but thought better of it at the last moment! Every day is a challenge but I never regret when I do, so that should tell me something.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Sushi- yum

156.8 #

60 min treadclimber

It feels good to exercise again, it does help relieve some of the stress I'm feeling. And crying helps too I guess. We went to dinner at China King... mmmm sushi. and now I've fixed the order of the posts I moved and started over again. Tomorrow is another day, and I am content in my life at home. I love everyone here....they put all the shit at work into perspective. And I can appreciate the things that really matter.

Lame

158#

I just got back from MA last night and I can tell I haven't worked out for 4 days now. grrrr. I am up a pound at ww and irritated. Then I get this email that squarespace charges for blogs so I had to move everything here (which isn't so bad since cut n paste is simple) but still. All in all... it feels wonderful to be home and back in Eddie's arms. My gurl is happy to see me and she's being a snugglebug too and g'ma and I are off the strict diet so even she is glad I'm home :D I'm dreading what will happen with work next month and I've decided I'm not even going to think about it this weekend, nor will I stress anymore about the damn scale~ the traitor that it is. And tomorrow I'll work out and get back in to a routine so I'll feel better.

Feb 12, 2008

40 min The Firm Cardio Party DVD

This is actually not a bad workout, there is some difficult steps since it has a dance segment and um- Im not the best dancer. But as long as you keep moving I dont suppose it matters if you know how to mamba or chacha... I think its good to not have a scale around to weigh myself every day and fixate, I just hope I don't get home and faint when I get on it again! I'm being VERY very good though and even though there's a DUNCAN DONUT on *every* intersection in this whole state.... I have resisted stepping foot in one. I just remind myself of all the reasons it would be a bad idea. I had some left over sushi for dinner.

Posted on Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Feb 11, 2008

55 min Hardcore kickboxing DVD

Wow. I haven't done this workout in a long while and I can tell the difference from when I was smoking a pack a day- I don't get winded like I did before. It's nice. This is still a kickass workout and one of the best kickboxing ones I own. I just need to keep changing it up because I did just this dvd for 6 months and kind of got burned out on it, so I'm glad I'm back to enjoying it again. MMM had sushi for dinner and restrained myself from eating it all.

Feb 10, 2008

50 min Treadclimber

I actually was surprised I was motivated enough to workout before I flew out. We finished our other diet and went to chipotle- it was good but I just don't enjoy it as much now that I know how many calories are in it :D Its sad.

Feb 9, 2008

156#

45 min treadclimber

60 min guided meditation

20 min balance class

We went to the gym and my gurl went to a valentine's party. I thought the guided meditation was great and will go again. I'm almost done packing... and I'm hungry but I'm holding out....

Posted on Saturday, February 9, 2008

Feb 8, 2008

158 # (although ww has me at 160 I guess my clothes are 2#???)

50 min Treadclimber

Hm, I always wonder if I should write this in the morning or at night. I guess I forgot yesterday. yesterday I went 45 min on the treadclimber and swam for 30 min. If I write in the morning it's hard to tell how I'll feel for the day but as evident by yesterday - if I don't, then forget it, I won't remember. I was hoping for better than 1.8# loss according to ww for the week. I am on my cycle so that might have alittle to do with it? I'm hoping anyhow. Well, the sharp pain on my right side is back. I was hoping it would go away. Maybe the ct scan on the 20th will show something? I'm wondering how I'll do on my weight while I'm in MA. I hope it's not too hard to stay on track. speaking of which- I should go pack.

Posted on Friday, February 8, 2008

Feb 6, 2008

160#

45 min treadclimber

2 hours swimming

20 min elliptical

20 min weights (lower body& back)

well I started today, I guess that explains why I've been feeling so blah lately and crying over every little thing. it's hard being a gurl sometimes. I wasn't too far off on my calculations- I guess I'm at least getting regular and predictable so at least I can *guess* as to why I'm feeling like this. I've been trying to exercise my cramps away.... to no avail.

Posted on Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Feb 5, 2008

160#

40 min treadclimber

60 min swimming

30 min weights

2 pounds!? sigh. I'm in a dysfunctional, hateful relationship with my scale at the moment. I do think I'm getting ready to start my cycle this week I think so maybe that's it- but it's still depressing. Maybe swimming will make me feel better (and I'll do weights too while I'm there....)

Posted on Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Feb 4, 2008

158 #

40 Min treadclimber

I just finished the book eat,pray,love.... it's a great book and I was sad to see it end, I can't wait for her next book (expected out in 2009). I also would love to get at least one digital scrapbook layout done... I'm sick of this, i dunno, block? I haven't been able to do any pages since I've moved here and it's been almost 2 years! so holy hell- something had better change soon or I might as well sell everything in this room. I don't know what my problem is.

Posted on Monday, February 4, 2008 at 11:23AM

Feb 3, 2008

159#

45 min treadclimber

mmmmmm it's nice to snuggle on sunday mornings :) I'm glad I was motivated enough to get up and exercise~ I really do think it makes me feel better, especially since I'm pms'n and feeling kind of bloated and cranky. If my calculations are right then I'll be starting tomorrow or the next day. Lets see if I can keep my diet on an even keel.

ugh~ I'm grumpy and tired and going to bed early.

Posted on Sunday, February 3, 2008 at 10:14AM

Feb 2, 2008

161# (lost 10# since I started ww yay me)

20 min treadclimber (overslept so didn't get the full 40 min in)

We woke up early and went to weight in and go to a meeting, I was happy to lose 5.8 pounds this week for a total of 10! yay. Only 39 pounds till my goal weight :) I think that these small 10# goals make that seem reasonable ;) I'm going out of town again Sunday and I'm alittle worried about having to eat out and gaining weight back ... we shall see how disciplined I can be.

Posted on Saturday, February 2, 2008 at 10:22AM

Feb 1, 2008

162#

40 Min Treadclimber

Well, One good thing about this blog... at least I work out everyday cause I don't want to write that I didn't do *anything* for exercise! Any little bit of motivation helps. And we're off to parent teacher conf.

Posted on Friday, February 1, 2008 at 10:27AM

Jan 31, 2008

162.5 #

30 Min Treadclimber

60 Min Swimming

Well I have an appt with a urologist today so we'll see if they have any insight as to why I have kidney infections every month and hopefully have an answer.

.... *hours later*

Nothing new was found- but I have more tests scheduled for the 20th of Feb and came home to an email from my boss asking me to come to MA for a week (yay Sushi!) although to be honest with you, eating sushi alone isn't nearly as good as eating it with my guy.... but- you gotta look for the good in things. So I'm hoping driving in the snow isnt too hard. We shall see. I'm sure gonna miss my gurl.

Posted on Thursday, January 31, 2008 at 06:49AM

Jan 30, 2008

163 #

40 min Tread climber

60 Min swimming

30 min Elliptical

15 min weights

It is *SO* windy outside~ I hate the wind! and it's a freezing cold wind too to top it off, my guy says it's not cold BUT IT IS! and I don't give a crap if the thermostat says 43 its FREEZING!

on a brighter note- I actually woke up at 5am and got my workout out of the way early today- that makes me happy. and I am looking forward to making a budget and keeping track of my finances. This is the year I am getting my shit together.

Posted on Wednesday, January 30, 2008 at 08:10AM

Jan 29, 2008

164 #

40 min Treadclimber

I'm done filing taxes and I'll be happy tp get that check- it's all going to my credit card. I will be uber responsable this year and work on paying off my debt instead of digging a deeper hole. Feels good to not be torn. I don't need for anything...

As for the pms'in... I took magnesium yesterday and today (after googling for relief) and I think it's helping some. I haven't cried at all today! We'll see. I'll have to talk to the urologist Thur about if it's ok to be taking. other than that, just another day :) and we're off to go swimming! *gurgle gurgle*

Posted on Tuesday, January 29, 2008 at 04:47

Jan 28, 2008

164#

40 min Treadclimber

sigh. I think my hormones are kicked up into full gear. I cried half the night and I feeling sad and emotional and even the toaster not releasing the waffle this morning had me in tears. Sometimes it's just sad being a gurl. I worked out (and it took all my willpower since every fiber of my being was screaming to go back to sleep) and I'm feeling alittle better. Hopefully this PMS will pass soon. I hate crying over everything.

Posted on Monday, January 28, 2008 at 09:56AM

Jan 27, 2008

165 #

40 min Treadclimber

When we're in the heat of summer here, I forget how cold it gets. How the wind cuts through you and the snow on the ground. It's surreal to look around at a lush green yard and try to picture when it was 19 degrees and going to the store was a chore that required bundling up. I guess because I've never lived anywhere that had seasons it's amazing to me the transformation nature makes a few times a year. Of course when I was school in Az we 'heard' about fall and winter and snow~ it's just that many of us had never experienced it. first hand. And today is one of those days I wish for perpetual spring. I want it warm, I want to lay outside and roll around on the grass. In shorts. not in the snow. Hurry up spring!!!

Posted on Sunday, January 27, 2008 at 10:06AM

Jan 26, 2008

165 Lbs

45 Min Treadclimber

I find it easier to get on the treadclimber first thing in the morning, then it's not hanging over my head for hours at a time.

Posted on Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 10:56AM

Jan 25, 2008

(WW) I'm down 4.3 pounds since my weigh in last week (yay me)

166 Lbs

39 min Treadclimber

45 min swimming

20 min weight training- upper body

a'ight so far it's been a good morning, even though I overslept, once I got my gurl off to school I went back to snugglin my love. He's dreamy.....

Today is weight watchers day. G'ma is coming too so it's nice to have someone to do stuff with. I think she'll like having the extra motivation~ we shall see. We're gonna do the core program for the next 2 weeks then change to the flex and see how we like each.

Posted on Friday, January 25, 2008 at 09:05AM

Jan 24, 2008

45 min The Firm- body sculpting DVD

40 min Treadclimber

166

I've been feeling emotional... angry. irritated.annoyed. But this morning I took a deep breath and held everything around me in gratitude that brought tears to my eyes. There is so much in my life I am thankful for and sometimes I forget that and dwell on negativity. Today will be a good day.

Posted on Thursday, January 24, 2008 at 08:58AM

Jan 23, 2008

34% Fat

29 BMI

168.6

30 Min treadclimber

Im feeling alittle better today, my back is hurting me but we shall see if these antiobiotics are working or not.

I went to get my passport today and that didn't go so well. I left there seething in rage. I need to meditate. It's day 4 of the 20 day HCG thing. This 500 cal diet is killin me, I'm hungry. and cranky. and did I mention hungry? But it comes and goes in waves so I try to maintain my water intake and I think that helps. I've decided to hold off on the P90X (I did 2 weeks) until after the HCG. In the meantime I'll do the firm, some kickboxing, swimming and the treadclimber. My goal is to do at least 30 min on the treadclimber everyday no matter what other program I'm doing. I've also started reading

The Beck Diet Solution It is different from other diet books because it is a psychological program, not a food plan. With the step-by-step program in this book, you will learn specific techniques to stay on your diet, lose weight, and maintain your weight loss for life. The Beck Diet Solution is based on clinical research in Cognitive Therapy. Anyhow~ interesting ideas.

Posted on Wednesday, January 23, 2008 at 02:56PM